Destruction

Why does a person destoy their life by drinking from the time they get up in the morning until almost bed time most every day? What causes a person to shut off the real world to only be creating their sense of reality from a bottle of beer? How does one begin to help a person see how they are destroying their life with alcohol?
Why do I feel like all I want to do is strangle and shake my friend just so that he will realize that he has destroyed so much in his life because of drinking? Where do I begin to tell my friend just what a horrible friend they have become because they have lost all respect for themselves and the people around them? How do I help my friend see that he lost his job, his family, and now begun losing friends because he can not function without a bottle of beer sitting in his hands?

I know I can't save the world or even anyone else in it besides myself, but it just angers me so much that someone I am good friends with is creating a huge path of destruction like a tornado that tears through a midwestern town in the springtime.

I just needed to vent and this seemed like the only place safe enough to vent.

Subbie Thoughts

I think I need to start writing again. Time to become focused once again. Life has a way of getting in the way of things. I am off kelter at the moment. Need a perspective check, and as you have always told me, I need to share my thoughts with you so that you know when i need fine tuned (LOL).

We have come a very long way since our beginnings. Sometimes it amazes me the journey that we have taken together that led us to the path we are on for our future. Sometimes we are so in tune with one another, at least I feel that way.
I can not tell you how much you are embedded into my heart and soul.
You may think that this is cliche, but trust me Master when I say this, Your words are what keeps my head above water. I start to falter and all I have to do is remember a word, a conversation, anything that puts your voice in my head and I know just how deep our relationship really is.
A long time ago before I met you and I did a lot of reading about BDSM, I read the words of submissives and how they felt about their Doms or Masters and I was like, yeah that sounds great but they need to get a grip on reality. LOL boy did I learn to eat those words. I never expected that those things I read about so long ago really hold true to the sanction of a BDSM relationship.
Do you have any idea just how motivational you are in my life? Just knowing you are there just to say hi each day keeps me in check. I need encouragement right now more than I ever have in the past. Things I think I am in control of, I am not so sure that I am.
Things that are within my reach seem unattainable at work. I think it's time to start positioning myself towards another company. Time to get my ducks in a row and explore just where my experience will land me. I need your guidance and support to know that I am doing the right thing.

Thank you for being my rock!!

Thank you Master for all that you are.
Thank you Master for the freedoms you give me.
Thank you Master for making my life complete with you.

(words revisited from old journal)

Be Careful what you ask for

As people age, their priorities can change...
The other day a guy came home and was greeted by his wife, dressed only in very sexy underwear and holding a couple of short velvet ropes.

"Tie me up," she purred, "and you can do anything you want."

So, he tied her up and went fishing