Ownership

2 yrs ago you gave me your collar.
2 yrs ago you committed yourself to me.
It has been the best 2 yrs of my life.
You never cease to amaze me with your caringness.
You are my motivator, my friend, my lover, and above all else my Master.
What was once casual turned to committment.
I have learned so much about myself over the last 2 yrs.
Without you in my life, I am not sure that I would be as happy as I am.

My submissiveness, my life, my love belong to you Master.
Thank you for being in my life.
Thank you for this collar I wear proudly.

Always yours

My life... My Master

My Life.. My Master


The tenderness of leather upon my skin
The bounds of my collar belong to you
Total and complete surrender
I give myself to you

Cries of bitter-sweet agony
Tests of time and will Prove my worth to complete your soul
Power struggled to earn your trust
Passion growing with each waking moment

Walking behind you along the path
Going where you lead
Reaching towards the edge

Your guidance stretching my limits
Molding me, guiding me, trusting me, Never permitting me to fall
The edge is never near
As I am safe in your hands.

Always yours

Scatter Brained

Perception is flawed.
Reality is a bundle of neurons.
Life is not what we think it is, but far more.
We Just Can't See It.
I (and by extension, you) can only effect that which I can touch.
Love is better than hate,
Truth should be sacred, regardless of the pain.
No one ever does anything they don't choose to.
You can't give anyone anything they are unable to grasp.

All that exists for you to experience is Choice and Chance.
Your choices are your only vices.
Chance is best endured by making good use of your vices.

Many might avoid Real Pain all together
trading the dread and fear of the Potentials
for the insular smugness of non-involvement.

Slyly smiling at their "WisDUM" in choice
whispering to themselves at how little harm comes to them.

Happy in their desperate isolation
Free from Agony... and Comfort

Untouched and smooth; without scars.

I've seen them everywhere; this plastic safety clearly evident in their eyes
Never drinking a full cup of life
never realizing the price of joy is participation of depth.

I, Myself, (as few can attest) would gulp it down in draughts.
Give Me Pain. Give Me Joy... Give Me Life... Give Me Sorrow.
I want it all... and though I may gnash at the nicks and blood
that My fulfilled request creates,

I will suffer through the pain and sorrow...

Because I know that I have lived full.

You can never explain ... depth to the shallow.
You can not, by sheer will and intimidation, create harmony.
You can never inculcate love...

All you can do is be the largest being you can fathom...
Loving, Giving, Doing and Being with every fiber you possess.

No one truly controls another, and few control themselves...
(No one ever chooses to do anything they do not want to)

The best anyone can do is be true and walk tall,
And if someone follows, whispers their joys in your ears
Then both are elevated and life can be sweeter.

Remembering

Master,

As we approach 2 yrs of ownership, I thought that I would remember the reason why this is all worth it in the end.

I can not believe that in January it will be 3 years since our first meeting at Ale House.

December 22nd, 2003 08:38 pm -
A New Beginning
Today marks the beginning of my live journal. I hope that this will be a very exciting, passionate, intriguing, and exciting path to travel down.
I have thought about my actions with MJ over the past 3 months and he could have very easily told me to go fuck off for the way that I have been non-committed to him.
Life just has a funny way of stepping in everytime I seem to be getting close to him again. I no longer want to just think of MJ as a play partner, but to know he is my Dom and will guide and protect me from harm.
We have stepped over that boundry last night in our talk of committment to one another. I have keep the emotional boundries in check this year and he opened a whole new world to me last night..
Sweet sighs of wonderful beginnings for a new year.
TY Sir for having faith in Us.

11:34 pm - Believing
It's funny how things fall into place when we least expect them to. I know that we have always been good friends above and beyond our D/s play time together Sir, but how this came about is still foggy in my head.
I know you have always told me to just believe in you and you would always be there for me.
Why I ever doubted that I will never have the answer. Maybe because of knowing that boundaries were set up Last January to protect each of us.

We knew from the beginning that neither was ready for a 24/7 with one another. I knew that I could not 'fall' for you if I wanted you as a play partner.

You set boundaries for our relationship to help protect my emotional state and ensure that I understood how far involved we could be with one another....and knowing those boundaries were not crossed has got us to this point.

I have thought about things that we have talked about, goals, wants and desires. I have always held back because I was afraid of losing what we do share. I am glad that you have accepted me as your submissive and the boundaries we have had the past year are no longer there. I give myself openly to you Sir.

The level of respect that I hold for you can now press forward into deeper emotions and new explorations.

Welcome Home
2003-12-24 02:41 am
It's been a long, strange journey...the two of U/us. But it IS time, and I'm excited to see where this next step takes U/us. The coming days and weeks and months will be a wonderful journey, and I'm glad you're on it with Me.
Welcome Home.
MJ

Can of Worms Opened

Be strong you tell me...
Believe in myself you tell me...
Don't be taken advantage of you tell me...

Yet everytime I feel strong, and believe in myself someone takes advantage of me.

I thought I had it all under control until today when I turned in my resignation.
I became weak and collapsed under pressure.
Well, It will get interesting over the next couple of days that is for sure.
Guess I will see if they call my bluff or realize just what I have to offer.
((Clip lyrics))
I’m down on my knees
Begging you to rescue me
Please stop me
Don’t let me run
Surround me…Surround me…now